Deliverance from Depression

Welcome to my “Deliverance from Depression” Blog.   Please visit my Deliverance Website before you respond to these posts.  The website will give you information about my deliverance and the ministries that God has used to bless me.  I look forward to your posts and prayerfully hope that God will give me wisdom to answer your questions and/or respond to your comments.  I have an answer to anything you ask, but sometimes the answer will be “I do not know”.  All I know is that Jesus delivered me and my desire is to share the good news with you because Jesus has no favorites.  What He has provided for me, He has provided for you!  I pray that God will use me to help you receive your deliverance from depression.

I want to make it clear that I do not have any credentials as a physician and I will not give you any medical advice or tell you whether or not you should take medication.  God uses doctors to help us when we can not help ourselves.  I have had very caring doctors who came along side when I was desperate and when I did not know how I was going to keep on living.  I thank God for them.  I give God all the Glory for my deliverance but I praise Him for putting people in my life that kept me alive and supported me until I could walk in the Deliverance that Jesus purchased for me on the Cross through the Power of the Holy Spirit.  Praise the Lord!

Just a note to say hi to all the people that are viewing my website.  I hope that my testimony has ministered to you.  If you have not watched it, you can view it by going to http://www.digitalsmiles.ca/testimony.html   I have also added a forum to my website if you want to check it out, just go to http://deliverancefromdepression.freeforums.org/index.php  Drop me a note in the Welcome Post.  If you would like to have a personal one on one conversation with me, go to http://www.digitalsmiles.ca/ and click on the “Live Chat” button.  If I am at my desk, we can have a chat.  I would love to hear from you.  You can also use the live chat to request prayer.  I am more than happy to pray with anyone that needs prayer support and agreement. 

If you need someone who understands what depression is like, please contact me through this blog and/or on my website at http://besetfree.org and click on this button on the entry page.  If I am at my desk and available, I would be happy to chat.  If for any reason, I am not available, please leave a message and I will contact you a.s.a.p.

I have been encouraged by people who have visited my site and have been set free from the lies of the enemy.  One of the biggest lies is that God can not set you free!  God is more than able to set the captives free.  He set this captive free and I know that He does not prefer any of His children over His other children.  God is Good! All the time!

God Bless You!

My belief is that God wants me to share how the Holy Spirit, through the Word of God is teaching me how to keep the Deliverance that Jesus bought and paid for on the Cross.  

As I have previously shared through my video testimony, chat forum and website that I received a deep revelation of how I was delivered from depression when Jesus died on the cross for me over 2,000 years ago.  I spent over 50 years bound by the lies of the enemy before I came to a place where I was able to receive that deliverance.  I know that God did not want me bound for all those years and He wants to reveal to you how to walk in His Freedom in Christ.

For over the last 18 months, I have walked in the joy of my deliverance with a wonderful assurance that God was going to use me to share my deliverance experience with others and bless others through it. 

I had a few trials during that time period and God’s Word in my heart gave me the power to get through victoriously. I believed that I would never again be deceived by the enemy in the area of depression.  I knew that it was God’s revelation that gave me the power to walk out my deliverance so I knew all I had to do was believe that Jesus paid for my deliverance and He was going to give me everything I needed to overcome the deception of the evil one.

I want to take a moment right now to pray.  Father, I ask for your wisdom and ability to write down what the Holy Spirit has spoken to my heart during the last few months.  I believe Father that you want to minister to all those who suffer with depression and/or any kind of bondage from the evil one.  I believe that You are faithful and more than able to speak through me.  Thank you for the people that you have used to reveal Your Truth through and their faithfulness to make Your teachings known to others (me).  I thank you Father for the scriptures that have changed my life.  Thank you for speaking the Word to my heart. 
For God is working in you, giving you the desire to obey him and the power to do what pleases him.  Phil 2:13 Thank you Father that You are giving me the desire to obey You and empowering me to do what pleases You.  I pray this in Jesus Name.  Amen

I want you (fellow believers) to know that it is my heart to speak the Truth in Love.  I know that I am an imperfect vessel that God is using but I do believe that God can use me right where I am to minister to you.  If what I say speaks and ministers to your heart then it more than likely is from God but if anything I say does not minister to you, please set it aside.  If it offends you, please forgive me.  If it does not line up with the Truth, please discard it.  If it doesn’t minister to you, there is a great probability that it was either spoken from my flesh, the enemy is twisting it or possibly you are just not able to receive it at present.  Take what parts of my testimony you can receive right now and let them minister to your heart.

I have been engaged in a battle for the last month (the whole month of November).  It appeared to be a knockout punch out of nowhere.  For a short while at the beginning of this trial, I was succumbing to the doubts and fears that started attacking my mind.  It appeared from the outside that I was falling into depression.  The enemy was speaking thoughts of defeat in my mind.  He continually bombarded my mind with doubt and unbelief.  I felt devastated by my emotions and the weakness I felt in my body.  The enemy reminded me often of how much I looked, felt and acted like I was depressed.  He taunted me with thoughts of defeat.  Some of the thoughts were “How are you going to help others when you can’t even help yourself?  What kind of testimony do you have now?  How can God use such a broken, sinful vessel?  How can you tell others of the victory they can have in Christ when you are so unhappy and defeated?  I don’t remember all the lies and accusations that the enemy spoke through at me but Praise the Lord, God’s Word reminded me (a very faint voice) of the Truth.  My victory is not dependent on how good I am, how strong I am, how sinless I am or in my ability at all!  My Victory is dependent on how Good God is, how capable God is, how Faithful God is, how Powerful God is, how loving God is and what Jesus has accomplished through the Cross. 

Praise the Lord!  What the enemy meant for evil, God has used for good! 

Genesis 50:20 But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. 

Isaiah 59:19 So shall they fear the name of the LORD from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD shall lift up a standard against him.   

I am so blessed that for the last month I have been able to drench myself in Faith teachings, pray in the spirit and sing praises to my God. 

Romans 10:17 So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

As I continued to listen to the teachings of Andrew Wommack and of Keith Moore, I became more encouraged and empowered to stand.  From the outside I kept getting knocked down (by the enemy’s lies) and then empowered to get up and fight (through the Word of God).  The enemy tried to convince me that I was losing my mind because of the up and down battle I was experiencing.  I felt so stretched because everything in the natural (carnal world) looked like defeat and everything in the Word (Spiritual World) said that the Victory was already mine! 

I believe that the enemy came to steal the Word (seed) that God had planted in my heart.  Satan does not want me free and he doesn’t want you set free either. 

1 John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.

But God has given us everything that pertains to life and godliness. 

2 Peter 1:3-4 According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue: Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises: that by these ye might be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.

I want to assure you that I have come through this time of Trial, stronger and with a deeper desire to obey God and deeper faith to believe that He going to do powerful things through me.  It is all because of His Greatness and His Purpose.  I share again one of the Scriptures that God has used through this time to deeply minister to me.  For God is working in you, giving you the desire to obey him and the power to do what pleases him.  Phil 2:13  It is all God!

I will continue to share what God has done in me through the last month in separate blog entries.  I pray that I will be able to communicate to you how much joy I have in my heart in spite of the pain and anguish that the evil one tried to destroy me with. 

1 Corinthians 10:13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

1 Peter 1:7 That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:

I cannot, in one blog entry cover the spectrum of truths that God spoke to my heart through the Word and/or expounded through the teachers that God has brought into my life, “For such a time as this”.  Esther 4:14 For if thou altogether holdest thy peace at this time, then shall there enlargement and deliverance arise to the Jews from another place; but thou and thy father’s house shall be destroyed: and who knoweth whether thou art come to the kingdom for such a time as this?

I want to encourage your heart and I know that is God’s Will also.  Please do not be discouraged by this trial I have experienced.  In the midst of this trial I have experienced such joy in knowing that I can trust in the Lord no matter what the circumstances are around me.  He is faithful and He is true.  We really can rejoice in any circumstances.  Please do not be discouraged.  I did not get the Victory in my strength. God did it in me! I could not walk free in myself. Jesus truly sets us free and gives us everything that we need to walk in Victory. If we only believe! I know that you can walk free because He did it in me (the least of all saints). My precious brothers and sisters, you truly could not be any more undeserving than I. God is not doing this in me because of anything I have done (either good or bad) but because He has brought me to a place and a time that He can work through me to set the captives free.

If you would like to hear more about the Victory that Christ has accomplished in my life, please check back to this blog.  My plan is to do updates as often as possible and share all the good things that God is doing in me.  I pray that what I share may be an encouragement to you.

God Bless You!

My Prayer,

Dear Father,

I pray for Your Wisdom and Understanding as I share what You are doing in my life. Thank You for Your love and longsuffering toward me as You shape and mold me into a vessel that You can work through. You know that the desire of my heart is to be used in your Kingdom to set the captives free. I know that You love all Your children and I know that You want Your children to be set free. That is why You sent Jesus. Thank you for loving us Father and for sending Jesus to pay for my sins so that I would no longer be under the curse and so that the blessings of Abraham would be mine. Thank You that You are always good. God is Good and His Mercy endures forever! Praise the Lord! Thank You for ministering to all those reading this blog. Speak to their hearts through me, I pray in Jesus Name.

Your daughter, Bev

Welcome back to my “Deliverance from Depression” blog. I pray that you will be encouraged by what God is doing in me. I am still dodging bullets (from the enemy) but Praise the Lord, God is speaking to me in the midst of the battle, encouraging me through the Word.

I was reminded today of how God has used Andrew Wommack and Keith Moore’s teachings to minister to me. I also remember how, in my video testimony, I shared that I am not a teacher and I am not a doctor. How true! Most of my revelation has come through teachers that have been obedient and diligent in their search for truth. I just want you to know that it is okay to glean the revelations that God has spoken to others. We do need to be aware that there are false teachers out there and that even the really good teachers don’t know it all so it is imperative to check out what others tell you about the Word, in the Holy Word itself. I find myself telling those of you reading my blog that you need to know that God loves you and that He cares about you and your problems. And you need to know that Jesus paid for all your sins. 1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

If you are feeling depressed right now and bombarded by negative thoughts, please remind yourself that the negative thoughts are definitely from the enemy. They are not your thoughts and they at NOT God’s thoughts. They obviously sound true or we would not have to battle with them. I have learned through some great teaching that I do not go by what I think or how I feel but by every word that God has spoken in the bible. That is why we need to be encouraged through the Word to stand and to resist the lies of the enemy. I know that the things that the enemy whispers in our minds sound true but ALL OUR SINS ARE UNDER THE BLOOD! We need to resist the enemy with the Word of God. We need to stand on the truths taught to us in the Word. I know that it is a battle and that is why God said in His Word to stand……when you have done all (resist), stand! Ephesians 6:13 - Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. (KJV)

So, what am I doing? 1. I am listening to good teachings only receiving what builds me up and NOT receiving anything that brings condemnation.
Romans 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
Oh boy does that ever open up a great thought. The enemy tells us what appears evident in our flesh but we do not walk after the flesh, we walk by Faith (what doesn’t seem evident but IS, in the Spirit). Sorry if I get a little deep but the battle is won in the Spirit. We cannot go by what we see or feel in the flesh. We have to resist the devil by telling him the Truth! I tell him that I AM DELIVERED FROM DEPRESSION! I tell him that because that is what is true. I don’t go by what I see or what I feel. I resist him with the Truth and then I stand because I believe that I will see the goodness of God in the land of the living. I believe that what God says is true and I have determined to stand no matter what my flesh says or feels. Let God be true and every man a liar. Romans 3:4 God forbid: yea, let God be true, but every man a liar; as it is written, That thou mightest be justified in thy sayings, and mightest overcome when thou art judged.

2. I am listening to positive, faith, grace music. Download free on Keith Moore’s Website. It has been ministering to my heart so much. Praise the Lord for the gifts he has blessed Keith Moore with and that God through their ministry has made available to us.

3. I am praising the Lord. Here are some of the lies that the enemy speaks to me when I am praising the Lord. Bev, you are not really meaning it from your heart. Bev, you are not accomplishing anything.

4. I am praying in tongues. I don’t know how to pray as I ought. Then the enemy comes and tells me that I am doing it wrong and that God is not hearing me and/or what are you accomplishing? Etc. God has given me the Scripture Hebrews 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. I just pray in tongues and state “I do believe that God is and I believe that He will reward me for diligently seeking Him”. Then I just keep on praying in tongues. I have noticed a big difference when I pray in tongues. It really does build me up in you Holy Most Faith and I really need that.

5. I am confessing the Word regarding my situation. I AM DELIVERED FROM DEPRESSION! God said so, so that is it! I am healed from any and all physical symptoms. I believe God and not my circumstances.

6. I am not beating myself up for my failures and/or shortcomings. I am not doing this all right! Praise the Lord, I don’t have to. The blood of Jesus covers all my sins! I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus no matter how things appear in the natural. It is just like I did it all right! Praise the Lord!

7. I am standing! I know that God is faithful and I am standing on God’s Word until I see it in the natural. Psalm 27:13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

I hope that you are being blessed by my sharing what God is doing in me. It blesses me to be reminded of how good and faithful God is. The enemy wants to steal joy. He wants to steal our faith in a Good God but he is a defeated foe. Our God is Good! Our God is Faithful! Jesus saved us, delivered us, healed us, washed us, empowered us and so much more on that cross. The victory is already ours. I encourage you to listen to the teachings I have mentioned above. I know that God brought these men of God into my life to teach me how to walk out my deliverance. God is also using them to speak truths into my life that will bless my life in many areas. I cannot thank the Lord enough for His Grace and Mercy toward me and toward all His children.

God Bless You!

Bev

Hi,
 

Praise the Lord! God is Good and His mercy endures forever!

What can I say that will be beneficial to you? I am still standing on the Word! Thanks be to God who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Corinthians 15:57

I have determined to hang onto Jesus no matter what. He is everything to me. My life is Christ’s. There is no other! I have reconciled myself to the fact that God is good, God is faithful and God is True. The enemy has been bringing doubts to my mind. I do not understand so much but I don’t trust my mind or my emotions. I trust God and the fact that every Word He has spoken is true. I am staying on God’s team, no matter how things appear. I know that my God is faithful. But he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is the rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. Hebrews 11:6
I do believe that God is, and that He will reward me because I wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him. Psalm 62:5
I trust the Lord with all my heart, and I lean not in my own understanding, in all my ways I acknowledge Him, and He will direct my paths. Proverbs 3:5

I cannot see in the natural how God can use me to minister to others but I believe that He has called me to this ministry. LORD, you establish peace for us; all that we have accomplished you have done for us. Isaiah 26:12
I trust that You will accomplish your desires in me Father.

What am I doing these days? When I am not allowing the enemy to preoccupy my thoughts………I am praising the Lord, listening to the bible, praying in tongues and listening to teachings. I do not feel moved by anything I am hearing. My mind is having a hard time discerning but I trust in God’s Word whether I understand it or not. I remember God showing me that even if I don’t think the Word is feeding me, I need to hang on to the fact the His Word will not return void but it will accomplish that for which it was sent. So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. Isaiah 55:11

I am not doing it all right! I am struggling but I know that I have the Victory in Jesus Name. It indeed is a fight of faith. Let God be true and every man a liar. Romans 3:4

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

Praise the Lord! God is Good and His mercy endures forever!

I pray that you have a blessed Christmas and that you will be filled with the Peace of God throughout the season and during 2008.
The Greatest Gift that I can share this Christmas is that God sent His Son Jesus to save you from your sin. You are the righteousness of God in Jesus. There is nothing that you can do to lose God’s Love for you. He loves you and hates sin! God made provision for our sin by sending His Precious Son Jesus to wash us from all our iniquity, present, past and future. We are now God’s children and righteous in God’s eyes. What an awesome Gift! The Gift of Eternal Life is ours. We now have relationship with the One and Only God that created everything. He is our Father and He loves us His Children. If you believe that God sent His Son Jesus to pay for your sins then you are saved by Faith through the Grace of God. I pray that you will receive this Gift into your heart this Christmas. The Gift from God is His total payment for all our sins! It is an awesome Gift, beyond our greatest dreams. We are righteous (just like we did it all right). He really loves you! You are forgiven. God has reconciled you to Himself. You are His Child. He loves all His Children.
For those who do not feel righteous or loved this Christmas, please remember that we do not go by how we think or feel but we go by what the Word of God says. We are righteous because of Jesus and we are deeply loved by our Creator as He has made evident in His Word. Do not let the enemy condemn you. He is a liar. You are precious in God’s sight. Hold on to the Truth because the Truth will set you free. He is moved with great compassion for you. “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:10
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
God loves the whole world (everyone) but they need to believe before they can receive His Great Gift. God has already dealt with our sin. He desires relationship with us. If we are saved (washed in the blood of Jesus) we can die and know that we are going to Heaven to be with Him. Praise the Lord! God loves us just as we are. God wants us free from sin so that we can live happy productive lives here on earth. We have been redeemed! Praise the Lord!
So no matter where you are (in your flesh) this Christmas, let your heart rejoice in the Lord for His great mercy toward you.
“Let the peace of God reign in your heart and be thankful.” Col. 3:15

Blessed New Year! I have been wishing people a Happy New Year almost all of my life but now I plan on more appropriately saying Blessed New Year. That is my prayer for you and yours. That is my prayer for me and mine. I pray that we be blessed.I have prayed and asked Jesus what it is that I could say here that would be a blessing to you. I still stand and believe that I am delivered from depression. I was delivered by Jesus over 2000 years ago. I know that only the Truth will set you free so I have prayed that Jesus would give me wisdom to speak the truth in love.
My cry to God right now is why am I not seeing the evidence of my deliverance in my flesh? I know that God has not failed me. God is faithful. My question to my Father in Heaven, who loves me so much that He sent Jesus to deliver me from sin, is “What stronghold is there in my life that allows the enemy to cause me such pain and anguish?” I could look at my past sins and say that I deserve such punishment but Jesus took that punishment for me on the cross. I have a lot of trouble with the thought that God caused this to teach me something….it just does not fit in with what I know about my Father. Would I cause such anguish to my children to teach them a lesson? No! Life does have a way of teaching us to turn from our sin but I know that it is the Goodness of God that leads us to repentance. Romans 2:4 Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?

If I have realized one thing through the last 2 months, it is that I know so little. I have so much to learn about God and His Wisdom. My heart’s desire is to know Him. I know that He has all the answers so it is God that I want to seek for with all my heart. He does not disappoint. The devil would like me to think so, but I do not go by what I see or by what analysis the world might come up with. I go by what the Word of God says, no matter how I feel or how I appear to be.

My New Year’s resolution is one thing…..to draw closer to God and know Him better. This one desire has created a list of things I intend to do in 2008.

1. Meditate on a different scripture every day
   
2. Spend time in prayer every day (in praise, thankfulness, conversation, listening)
   
3. Read the Word of God every day
   
4. Exercise (physically) every day
   
5. Learn to eat in moderation and to eat healthier
   
6. When I listen to teachings, check out every scripture with God
   
7. Use my Litebook every day or spend some time in the sunshine
   

    

My scripture for today is Proverbs 3:5,6 - Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

God bless you all in 2008. I pray that you, and I will know God better in 2008 and bear fruit in His Name.

Your sister in Christ,

Bev

God is good and His mercy endures forever. I just wanted to praise the Lord for my deliverance. I don’t see it in the natural right now but I know that I have been set free from depression! The enemy is trying to steal my joy, my sanity, my deliverance but I have caught him and he has to pay me back seven-fold.

Proverbs 6: 30Men do not despise a thief, if he steal to satisfy his soul when he is hungry;

 31But if he be found, he shall restore sevenfold; he shall give all the substance of his house.

I read somewhere once that sevenfold is a lot more than seven times what was stolen. It is more like seven times seven, times seven, times seven, times seven, times seven, times seven. That is seven to the power of seven. At any rate, the enemy owes me a bundle! I am delivered and he has no right to put all this agony on me. I am redeemed from the curse of the law!

Praise the Lord for His Goodness and His faithfulness. God is good and His mercy endures forever.

I know that my God, my Father in Heaven is faithful and I put my trust in Him because He is trustworthy and every word He has given us through His Son Jesus is True. John 8:32 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free
I yearn to know you better Jesus. To know you is to love you more. My deepest desire is to know you better. Thank you for revealing more of Yourself to me as I cry out to You. There is nowhere else to go but to the creator, for wisdom and direction in my life. You are the source of everything that I need. Oh how I need You Jesus. I need you more than I need anything else. You are my life, my hope, my everything. Thank You for loving me and caring about the pain I am going through. I know that whatever Jesus did, he first saw you do, so I know that You are full of compassion as Jesus is full of compassion. You care about Your children. You care about me. Thank you Father for always causing me to triumph in Christ. 2 Corinthians 2:14Thanks be to God, which always causes me to triumph in Christ and maketh manifest the savour of His knowledge by us in every place.
I have the victory and satan cannot keep me from it. I take my authority in Jesus Name and demand that you take your hands off my blessings in Christ. I have power and authority in Jesus Name! Luke 9:1 Then he called his twelve disciples together, and gave them power and authority over all devils, and to cure diseases.

Praise the lord Jesus Christ now and always!

God bless you and keep you,

Bev

This Video really ministers to me! God is Good! His Mercy endures forever!